I had something inside my head
No sympathy, no sympathy

My medication made me feel undead
No sympathy, no sympathy

And when I couldn't relax on account of my panic attacks
you told me you had enough
"Just take some Atarax"

And when I went to my scans
As I was dreading my death
You had more pressing concerns
I got your message

You keep on digging at the crossroads
No sympathy, no sympathy
You conjure spectres from the black moss
No sympathy, no sympathy
You're dedicated to a lost cause
No sympathy, no sympathy
You dwell apart inside a black box
No sympathy, no sympathy

I was looking for a stretched out hand
No sympathy, no sympathy

Of all the people I needed to understand
No sympathy, no sympathy

And nothing ever survives it doesn't matter how much you micromanage your heart
Or play the savant

Your soil is barren
Because you keep splitting atoms
Instead of seeing yourself in the mirror
Maybe you just can't

You keep on digging at the crossroads
No sympathy, no sympathy
You conjure spectres from the black moss
No sympathy, no sympathy
You're dedicated to a lost cause
No sympathy, no sympathy
You dwell apart inside a black box
No sympathy, no sympathy

You couldn't handle my affliction
No sympathy, no sympathy
I was kicked like an addiction
No sympathy, no sympathy

And when I couldn't relax on account of my panic attacks
you told me you had enough
"Just take some Atarax"

And when I went to my scans
As I was dreading my death
You had more pressing concerns
I got your message

You keep on digging at the crossroads
No sympathy, no sympathy
You conjure spectres from the black moss
No sympathy, no sympathy
You're dedicated to a lost cause
No sympathy, no sympathy
You dwell apart inside a black box
No sympathy, no sympathy

It's hard to believe
That's how it used to feel
Walking like a part of me
Was grounded actually

All of our memories
Separated by the seas
Alone in the debris
My insecurities

Wild eyes burning through the ceiling
Watching the skies
And trying to breathe

White scars never heard of healing
Watching myself
While trying to leave

I can remember you
From when I thought I knew
That you were being true
And we were pulling through

I cannot understand
Just how you could hold my hand
While you were making plans
To feed us to the sand

Wild eyes burning through the ceiling
Watching the skies
And trying to breathe

White scars never heard of healing
Watching myself
While trying to leave

I ain't got nobody
To call my own
Won't you be that body
My heart and soul

I ain't got no colours
To paint your world
All I got is sorrows
And rain and dirt

I think about you everyday
And there's still so much to say
You think you set me free?
When you said stay in love with me

Stay in love with me
Stay in love with me
Stay in love with me
Stay in love with me

As long as
You stay in love with me

I know you are hurting
I feel it too
We were never working
But still we move

When I mourned my mother
I couldn't see
When I had no other
You showed to me

I think about you everyday
And there's still so much to say
You think you set me free?
When you said stay in love with me

Stay in love with me
Stay in love with me
Stay in love with me
Stay in love with me

As long as
You stay in love with me

We are ancient history
And made of glass
We are ghost electric
Like dolls of brass

When you said you wanted
To stay in love
All I could have answered
Was not enough

I think about you everyday
And there's still so much to say
You think you set me free?
When you said stay in love with me

Stay in love with me
Stay in love with me
Stay in love with me
Stay in love with me

As long as
You stay in love with me

Up on Solsbury Hill
I'm watching satellites go by
Projecting all scenarios upon the midnight sky

Seeing myself falling
Seeing myself holding on
Driving down the boulevard
Passing myself on the run

All alone by the train tracks and bus lanes
Lost among the cutbacks and nightshade

It's when you need some sympathy
And you're left with apathy
When you're breaking at the seams
And there's nothing to do but bleed

It's a cut in a place you've heard
Is worse than being hurt

From the Eiffel Tower
I can see you rule my world
Enact the scenes of power plays where I'm a distant third

It's a fight on new year's night
It's a film in black and white
It's a word you can't take back
It's a jump from such great heights

All alone by the train tracks and bus lanes
Lost among the cutbacks and nightshade

It's when you need some sympathy
And you're left with apathy
When you're breaking at the seams
And there's nothing to do but bleed

It's a cut in a place you've heard
Is worse than being hurt

I saw you go against the norm
So I wanted to too I don't conform you know?

You don't look like you belong
I like it
Can I ask you where you're from
I like it
Can I ask you where you're from
I like it
Can I ask you where you're from
You're like a bullet proof vest in a desert storm

I like it
Is that your uniform
I like it
Is that your uniform
Yeah yeah
You're looking good, man
I'm ready to perform
Is that your uniform
Yeah yeah
You're looking good, man
I'm ready to perform

Now
I belong
In this uniform
And all night long
Nothing's wrong
I belong
In this uniform
In this uniform
All night long

You saw me handing out sweat and swords
I was killing that horse with revolver doors

And you know I wasn't sober of my own accord
Suit up
Jet black and climb on board
Suit up
Jet black and climb on board

You're like a commodore calling us to port

Suit up
Jet black and climb on board
I like it
Is that your uniform
I like it
Is that your uniform
Yeah yeah
You're looking good, man
I'm ready to perform
Is that your uniform
Yeah yeah
You're looking good, man
I'm ready to perform

Now
I belong
In this uniform
And all night long
Nothing's wrong
I belong
In this uniform
In this uniform
All night long

When the moonlight shines on the steps of paradise
I can see the walls that they've built for me
When the light's call out for the darkest of the bright
I can almost see who I'm meant to be

The hollow lights
The hollow lights
So cold and bright
Blinded by the polarity
The hollow lights
The hollow lights
So dead and white
I'm not just what you make of me

One lifetime
In the service of the darkness I was high
On the shadow I've been riding all my life
In the service of the darkness you and I
Like a black light

Cause I'm bleeding
While you're sleeping
That's alright
In the service of the darkness that we always try to hide

And you can believe me when I say I'm on the outside looking in
And if I'm ever breaking through you'll know that every word's a sin

In the service of the darkness, darkness
In the service of the darkness you and I

When the fear is high like an unrelenting tide
You can swim but it's all the same
When you wake up wet and the sun's already set
You can paint the night in a broken frame

The hollow lights
The hollow lights
So cold and bright
Blinded by the polarity
The hollow lights
The hollow lights
So dead and white
I'm not just what you make of me

One lifetime
In the service of the darkness I was high
On the shadow I've been riding all my life
In the service of the darkness you and I
Like a black light

Cause I'm bleeding
While you're sleeping
That's alright
In the service of the darkness that we always try to hide

And you can believe me when I say I'm on the outside looking in
And if I'm ever breaking through you'll know that every word's a sin

In the service of the darkness, darkness
In the service of the darkness you and I

The caterpillar told me I was made for something I just can't explain
He didn't cut me down to size but I would never have a bite again

It's time to wake up
To climb out of the rabbit hole
You've reached a full stop
You're all inertia down below

I lived a lifetime in her garden
When I woke up from the fire

I ended up a hatter
Though I started out asleep before the tide
I picked up on the madness
Every mind altering sip that we imbibed

It's time to wake up
To climb out of the rabbit hole
You've reached a full stop
You're all inertia down below

Well that is life insomnia
Just trying to make it fucking start
I played a game with the white queen
I played a game with the white queen
I lost my head in the cutscenes

Back when I was in the pink
You tried to hold me like I was a sword
When I had mouth enough to speak
You told me all the words I could afford

Well that is life insomnia
Just trying to make it fucking start
I played a game with the white queen

It's time to wake up
To climb out of the rabbit hole
You've reached a full stop
You're all inertia down below

Well that is life insomnia
Just trying to make it fucking start
I played a game with the white queen
I lost my head in the cutscenes
How can I fight your future?

I know my woes are mainly all systemic
But I can't help but feel a bit pathetic
You know
Cause everything still blows

It's really hard for me to play pragmatic
When all of the veneer is just semantic's
Below
It's all a lousy show

You just gotta laugh
Sadly
C'est la vie
I've been waiting since I crashed
Badly
C'est la vie
Now my time is just a flash

They would always call me trash
And all I ate would taste like ash
I've been lost on countless ships
I've been thrown against the cliffs
I've been staring at the sea
I'm in love with broken dreams
And I've been breaking at the seams
Cause I just can't make my peace

I'm doing all the things that are expected
Working overtime and paying taxes
And still
I'm dying on this hill

I'm looking for the usual perks and assets
Stretching them to cover up my past tense
Until
There's nothing left to feel

You just gotta laugh
Sadly
C'est la vie
I've been waiting since I crashed
Badly
C'est la vie
Now my time is just a flash

They would always call me trash
And all I ate would taste like ash
I've been lost on countless ships
I've been thrown against the cliffs
I've been staring at the sea
I'm in love with broken dreams
And I've been breaking at the seams
Cause I just can't make my peace

The music's loud and the lights are low
I look at you with eyes gone cold
I never had a sense of purpose
I always trusted the great road

I think you know I'm hurting
But I can't say for certain
My deductive skills are barely working
I know you tried to get it
Our love was like anaestethic
But now it all just seems a bit pathetic

You see me standing in the corner smiling
But there is always someone that I'm hiding
And every now and then I'm someone's darling
But deep inside I always keep on gliding

(Deep inside he always keeps on gliding)
I'm looking for something I keep denying
(He's looking for something he keeps denying)
Being who I am is terrifying

I know we never reached the sky
But I was loving every try
I sacrificed my own reflection
Cause I believed that we could fly

I think you know I'm hurting
But I can't say for certain
My deductive skills are barely working
I know you tried to get it
Our love was like anaestethic
But now it all just seems a bit pathetic

You see me standing in the corner smiling
But there is always someone that I'm hiding
And every now and then I'm someone's darling
But deep inside I always keep on gliding
(Deep inside he always keeps on gliding)
I'm looking for something I keep denying
(He's looking for something he keeps denying)
Being who I am is terrifying

I can never tell the difference 'tween a saint and sinner
I keep looking in their eyes for some kind of nightly glimmer

I don't know the nature of these appetites I fear
Won't you help me figure out where I could go from here?

Fallen angels and kings and strangers
Playing in the dark
Secret silence and loving violence
Making in the dark
Warlocks and witches are painting pictures
New forms in the dark
Signifying a seeker dying
Reborn in the dark

I don't care for being touched without a real connection
All I need is to be seen and then see my own reflection

I don't know the nature of these appetites I fear
Won't you help me figure out where I could go from here?
Fallen angels and kings and strangers
Playing in the dark
Secret silence and loving violence
Making in the dark
Warlocks and witches are painting pictures
New forms in the dark
Signifying a seeker dying
Reborn in the dark

I'm going down a straight line, and they keep telling me I'm fine, there's plenty of choice
Yeah I no longer register movement, there's no improvement, it's a still life, made of noise

Y'know I'm not really driving as much as I'm riding shotgun with the crew
Mr Manic Depressive and his friend compulsive obsessive and you

I never managed to become an alcoholic even though I tried and tried
So I was still sober when the world was hung over
Never low but never high
And I keep on getting dumber while I'm waiting for my number, I don't know if I'm really alive
I may have never had a life and yet I'm sleeping with a knife, cause I'll be damned if someone gets inside

I keep losing myself and god knows what else, I'm just so bored with being cool
I'm a stagnant position there's no division everybody knows I'm just a tool

I know I'm meant to relent but I just resent the implication that I'm bent
Out of shape like a fake, I'm just a foreign make of familiar descent

I never managed to become an alcoholic even though I tried and tried
So I was still sober when the world was hung over
Never low but never high
And I keep on getting dumber while I'm waiting for my number, I don't know if I'm really alive
I may have never had a life and yet I'm sleeping with a knife, cause I'll be damned if someone gets inside

I am glitter and feathers of crows and leather
I am breaking cause none of it fits together

I am talons, and rainbows, and unseen highs and lows
I am pain from a place that we're not supposed to know

I am signal

Got to have a ride
And I kick to the port side

Stalker's on the line
Telling me I'm fine
Mother's on the flipside

The city's out of time
Smoking like a fire
Mother's on the flipside

Stalker's in distress
She's company I guess
Mother's on the flipside

The world is out of frame
And I am out of game
Mother's on the flipside

All I've seen made me falter and then the stalker came
I kept my head down and went on living with my dead name

I kept myself in the closet like some old wedding gown
I wore my self imposed erasure like a paper crown

I am signal

Got to have a ride
And I kick to the port side

Stalker's on the line
Telling me I'm fine
Mother's on the flipside

The city's out of time
Smoking like a fire
Mother's on the flipside

Stalker's in distress
She's company I guess
Mother's on the flipside

The world is out of frame
And I am out of game
Mother's on the flipside

Stalker's on the line
Telling me I'm fine
Mother's on the flipside
Waiting for the lowlife

Stalker's on the line
Telling me I'm fine
Mother's on the flipside

The city's out of time
Smoking like a fire
Mother's on the flipside

Stalker's in distress
She's company I guess
Mother's on the flipside

The world is out of frame
And I am out of game
Mother's on the flipside

Well you have always been
A bitter flavour
And I think that's due
To your behaviour
But I've always said
That there is more to you

Well I would think that friends
Would put their trust
In the people
That they love the most
But I would never expect
For you to make me choose

But you're so radiant
And every day you lent me strength
So I could keep on fighting
But now what is the point of that
Inside me
The winter is my ancestry
My spring was when we'd marry
My summer came upon your breath

You have my heart on a string
Yeah you can do anything

Well they said that you
Had lost your way
And that I shouldn't feel
A bit ashamed
But I failed to do the one thing
You would have me do

And then you gave me hope
When there was none
When you said our love
Was distant one
I would have sailed across
The seven seas so blue

But you're so radiant
And every day you lent me strength
So I could keep on fighting
But now what is the point of that
Inside me
The winter is my ancestry
The spring was when we'd marry
My summer came upon your breath

You have my heart on a string
Yeah you can do anything

Ten more years
Of all the same mistakes
Left alone
At every single wake

Explosive
And so irrelevant
Made of knots
Insane and elegant

I regret it almost every day
That's what you're expecting me to say
Always tried to help you get your way
Never was a way to make you stay

I don't want to be some kind of fairly
Ordinary
Someone you'd forget and never write
But I just cannot seem to build up confidence to talk
I am broken
You're afraid of the dark

It's just so god damn fucking hard
To be a man and world apart
You bite your lip and you discard
And you begin to harden

Waiting for
My final fantasy
Road is fraught
With false realities

I'm on sale
Broke up and going spare
Need to go
Wish you would take me there

I regret it almost every day
That's what you're expecting me to say
Always tried to help you get your way
Never was a way to make you stay

I don't want to be some kind of fairly
Ordinary
Someone you'd forget and never write
But I just cannot seem to build up confidence to talk
I am broken
You're afraid of the dark

It's just so god damn fucking hard
To be a man and world apart
You bite your lip and you discard
And you begin to harden

I came from out of town
A different kind of clown
Defeated beaten down
But still a proud one

I had a way with words
And you were so sure
That we were rare birds
A love to die for

And I hated
To be degraded
But I waited
And it faded

Oh I loved you
Cause I'm a damned fool
I forgave you
From the cesspool

I'll have another but it's not what I really want
I'll have another but it's not gonna make it stop
I'll have another though it's not really good for me
It's gotta be some crazy kind of sorcery

La-like-Abracadabra
La-like-Abracadabra
La-like-Abracadabra
La-like-Abracadabra

We had some good years
We shared our worst fears
I cried some real tears
And your resent flared

And when I got sick
It was the last straw
I was a weak prick
And you were my law

And I hated
To be degraded
But I waited
And it faded

Oh I loved you
Cause I'm a damned fool
I forgave you
From the cesspool

I'll have another but it's not what I really want
I'll have another but it's not gonna make it stop
I'll have another though it's not really good for me
It's gotta be some crazy kind of sorcery
La-like-Abracadabra

La-like-Abracadabra
La-like-Abracadabra
La-like-Abracadabra

Last fire will rise
Behind those eyes
Black house will rock
Blind boys don't lie

Immortal fear
That voice so clear
Through broken walls
That scream I hear

Cry, little sister! (Thou shalt not fall)
Come, come to your brother! (Thou shalt not die)
Unchain me, sister! (Thou shalt not fear)
Love is with your brother! (Thou shalt not kill)

Blue masquerade
Strangers look on
When will they learn
This loneliness?

Temptation heat
Beats like a drum
Deep in your veins
I will not lie

Cry, little sister! (Thou shalt not fall)
Come, come to your brother! (Thou shalt not die)
Unchain me, sister! (Thou shalt not fear)
Love is with your brother! (Thou shalt not kill)

My Shangri-Las
I can't forget
Why you were mine
I need you now!

Cry, little sister! (Thou shalt not fall)
Come, come to your brother! (Thou shalt not die)
Unchain me, sister! (Thou shalt not fear)
Love is with your brother! (Thou shalt not kill)

I'm at a crossroads
On a prairie
I'm just a lost ghost
A life contrary

I used to be ill
But I don't talk about it
I wear a pale shroud
And keep myself divided

Going round midnight
Monochrome white knight
Going round midnight
Monochrome white knight

No other room could be this serious
A man could die just minding his business

When time is of the essence
I can only guess at the mark
Don't care of consequences
I am making leaps in the dark
I can burst out of the tunnel
In a blaze of heat and sunshine
On the boundary of disaster
I can hold the line
One more time

They took one look at me
And then decided
That I'm a madman
I can't deny it

But we can talk the way
That we need to talk
In the grey dawn
We can go to work

Going round midnight
Monochrome white knight
Going round midnight
Monochrome white knight

No other room could be this serious
A man could die just minding his business

When time is of the essence
I can only guess at the mark
Don't care of consequences
I am making leaps in the dark
I can burst out of the tunnel
In a blaze of heat and sunshine
On the boundary of disaster
I can hold the line
One more time

And so begins the sermon
Celebrated neon prison
The women come to be looked at
The men come to look at the women

Rows and rows of Don Lorenzo's
Eyes like damp and heat and pressure
Dashing after their own fashion
They don't know how to read attraction

Stand them up
Stand them up
Stand them up
Stand them up

No vanilla perfume
Can conceal the rancid stench
Trailing from a mindful
Of malodorous intent
There's no circumventing
What pervades without consent
But you don't owe these men a thing

No amount of sweet talk
Can disguise the rot beneath
Compliments whenever
Noise and lies through sharpened teeth
There's no sugar coating
Air that's too fetid to breathe
And you don't owe these men a thing

The plot's all too familiar
Like something out of scripture
The floor is bound for stormy weather
Clouds of fine cologne now gather

Rows and rows of Don Lorenzo's
Acting like the monk Ambrosio
They entertain the backwards notion
That they're entitled to a woman

Stand them up
Stand them up
Stand them up
Stand them up

No vanilla perfume
Can conceal the rancid stench
Trailing from a mindful
Of malodorous intent
There's no circumventing
What pervades without consent
But you don't owe these men a thing

No amount of sweet talk
Can disguise the rot beneath
Compliments whenever
Noise and lies through sharpened teeth
There's no sugar coating
Air that's too fetid to breathe
And you don't owe these men a thing

Stand them up
Stand them up
Stand them up
Stand them up

You can break it if you fake it, come on and shake it
We're rolling here, just throw a fit, we're getting there
And all the shit that you won't admit is killing me
Are the things you really ought to see

You think I'm going of my own volition
When all the troubles you can see are superstitions
You think I'm moving cause my inhibitions
Are caused by something nobody but you envision

Tell me
Do you find pleasure
In applying pressure
To my castle walls on the threshold
Can you do better
Than stürm und drang
Or would some clement weather dull your fangs
Is the violence your angst
Manifest in me
Am I just the red you see

The lights go out
The lights go out
The lights go out
Behind my castle walls

The lights go out
The lights go out
The lights go out
Behind my castle walls

We can make it if we talk about it
But you can't talk without breaking glass and letting out
The demons of your past
Are the demons we can't seem to get past

You think I'm difficult to break down
I was broken long before the first time we left town
You kept counting each light
In the gaslight you used to light to align my sight

Now tell me
Do you find pleasure
In applying pressure
To my castle walls on the threshold
Can you do better
Than stürm und drang
Or would some clement weather dull your fangs
Is the violence your angst
Manifest in me
Am I just the red you see

The lights go out
The lights go out
The lights go out
Behind my castle walls

Am I just the red you see
On the floor
Behind my castle walls

Am I just the red you see
On the floor
Behind my castle walls

It's a strange kind of pleasure
I do not recognize
Myself in the picture
I am just a set of eyes

Objectified but she's alive
Objectified but she's alive
Under control she can't decide
Her meaning is what they provide

Caught up in the order
Subjection to a gaze
The language of our fathers
Piercing eyes without a trace

Objectified but she's alive
Objectified but she's alive
Under control she can't decide
Her meaning is what they provide

It's been a hard week
Close to a heartbreak
Bit of a losing streak
A handful of mistakes

Caught in a maelstrom
Life is just way too big
Feeling my backbone
Crack like a dry old twig

It's been a hard year
Just like the last, oh dear
Why am I still here
Why do I still care

It's been a disgrace
A parade of judgement days
Caught in a rat race
Afraid of my own face

It's been a hard life
It's never felt quite right
Cuts like a dull knife
Now bleeding just feels trite

The memories I've savoured
The few times I did do good
Have all lost their flavour
They've done more than memories should

It's been a hard week
Close to a heartbreak
Bit of a losing streak
A handful of mistakes

Caught in a maelstrom
Life is just way too big
Feeling my backbone
Crack like a dry old twig

You and I
Have both grown so weary
Of words and of people, and cities
It all makes us feel ordinary

Oh we long
For the touch of a vanish'd day
When the joy in our hearts was
More than a memory

If we keep hurting each other
Love won't bear to recover
If we press on below the water
The sea will drown out our laughter

You and I
Are both scared of blinking
As all of our dreams where thrown overboard
Just to keep us from sinking

Now we watch the world
Through searing eyes
While the fear and loathing
Rots our thinking

If we keep hurting each other
Love won't bear to recover
If we press on below the water
The sea will drown out our laughter

Everybody wants you to be ordinary, ordinary
Life is so much simpler when you're ordinary, ordinary
We won't be normalized,
We have dreams to realize!
We won't be traumatized
We have dreams to realize!

Stay, stay deranged

People like you better when you're ordinary, ordinary
So why don't you surrender and be ordinary, ordinary?
We won't be normalized,
We have dreams to realize!
We won't be traumatized
We have dreams to realize!

Stay, stay deranged

Don't let them convince you to be ordinary, ordinary
You can be the star of anti-ordinary, ordinary!

Stay, stay deranged
Stay, stay, stay
Stay, stay deranged

We won't be normalized,
We have dreams to realize!
We won't be traumatized
We have dreams to realize!

Everybody wants you to be ordinary, ordinary
Life is so much simpler when you're ordinary, ordinary
People like you better when you're ordinary, ordinary
So why don't you surrender and be ordinary, ordinary?
Don't let them convince you to be ordinary, ordinary
You can be the star of anti-ordinary, ordinary!

I could have just pretended
And nothing would have changed
But I wanted to imagine
A future bright and strange

It's really been a long time
The summer's turned to fall
I wish I could remember
The glory of it all

But I don't remember
I don't recall
But I don't remember
Anything at all

The past is perfect
It was worth it
I deserved it
The past is perfect
I can't hurt it
Anymore
I took it all in stride
Although I never did it right
The past is perfect
I deserved it
Don't you know

The future's looking brighter
But I can't hear its call
I wish I could remember
The storm before the calm

But I don't remember
I don't recall
I don't remember
Anything at all
The past is perfect
It was worth it
I deserved it
The past is perfect
I can't hurt it
Anymore
I took it all in stride
Although I never did it right
The past is perfect
I deserved it
Don't you know

In the pale, pale light
The pale, pale light of the moonglow
I've got a hunger that's in motion
A hunger that I can't control
I'm alone now, in my room again
On the prowl now through your dreams again

Howling
Howling
Howling
Howling
Since the world began

Things come in and out
Things come in and out of fashion
Some things never change
Some things just stay the same
Waiting
And the forest looks so green again
And I worship at your feet again

Howling
Howling
Howling
Howling
Since the world began

Howling
Howling
Howling
Howling
Ever since the world began

With ya' cold, cold eyes
Cold, cold eyes you're a deep one
Just one kiss away
Just one kiss away from passion
And I bow down to my knees again
And I worship at your feet again

Howling
Howling
Howling
Howling
Since the world began

Howling
Howling
Howling
Howling
Ever since the world began

Howling
Howling
Howling
Howling